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Well, I think that sleeping with Twangel reflects a fear of failure. Sleeping with Angel back in S2 was her first big "grown-up" mistake. Sure, burning down a school building and causing one's mom to move is bad, but it rings of a troubled teenager. Sleeping with one's boyfriend, have him lose his conscience, putting your family and friends (and their pets) in real danger and resulting in not only the deaths of multiple townspeople over the course of several months including that of her mentor's girlfriend. Even though the information that would have prevented Buffy from making said mistake was kept from her, she feels responsible and also feels as though she has failed as a Slayer. When Angel shows up with his sweet nothing words about the happiness she deserves and the glow that means them being together is the "right thing," it's just what Buffy wants to hear, that one of her greatest mistakes that forever shut down a part of her from other relationships, that shifted how others viewed her judgement was meant to happen, that it's not her fault. If the Universe wants her to be with Angel in their special dimension, then she's not a failure. I think that's why it's so easy for her to go along with what he's telling her. It's only when she gets in an alien environment and stops having physical distractions when she starts to feel uncomfortable with what's going on. She can't stay in Twilight because her friends are still alive and need her. Choosing herself over the world would once again make her a failure in her Slayer duties, so she goes back, still thinking that she and Angel are really going to be together forever now that he won't loose his soul with sex or so it appears. Yet once again, choosing herself and Angel over others, even for a moment, costs her the life of someone close to her, which in turn means that she can't have what she wants and she's still a failure.