Rewatching Stuff
Jul. 18th, 2008 07:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shipperxFor the first time in ages I rewatched "Touched", parts of "End of Days," and "Chosen" (basically to remind myself for fanfic purposes, because it has been ages since I watched them.)
What did I discover?
* The parts of these episodes that I deeply, earnestly disliked, I still deeply, earnestly dislike.
* I still don't know what in the fuck Buffy meant by telling Spike that he sent "mixed signals" (or messages, or whatever). Even if I squint very, very hard, I still don't see it. Look, Spike is not that difficult to read!
* By this point of Season 7, watching Spike breaks my heart. Pain resides in this ending for me because I don't care what other explanations I've seen or read or heard, it still plays for me as resigned acceptance of a lost dream, which still pisses me off and breaks my heart at the exact same time.
* I like to pretend that Angel is on drugs or very, very drunk because even though Joss seemed to forget that Cordy was mostly dead and that Connor was lost to Angel (for what Angel thought would be forever) I don't forget. Okay, so maybe Angel wasn't on drugs, but it's either drugs or believing that Angel is being utterly fake as he smiles and tosses off quips and petty jealousies, because the vampire I know was heart broken over Cordy and Connor because he loved them and tragic, horrific things had just happened to them. And EoD and Chosen had not the tiniest hint of that.
* Listening to Joss's commentary still makes me want to grab his shoulders and shake him.
So, um, what did I discover?
Nothing has changed.
(Not that I expected DVDs to change. It's just that it's a bit of a surprise to me that even after all this time, watching these episodes can dig up the old indignation and hurt.)
What did I discover?
* The parts of these episodes that I deeply, earnestly disliked, I still deeply, earnestly dislike.
* I still don't know what in the fuck Buffy meant by telling Spike that he sent "mixed signals" (or messages, or whatever). Even if I squint very, very hard, I still don't see it. Look, Spike is not that difficult to read!
* By this point of Season 7, watching Spike breaks my heart. Pain resides in this ending for me because I don't care what other explanations I've seen or read or heard, it still plays for me as resigned acceptance of a lost dream, which still pisses me off and breaks my heart at the exact same time.
* I like to pretend that Angel is on drugs or very, very drunk because even though Joss seemed to forget that Cordy was mostly dead and that Connor was lost to Angel (for what Angel thought would be forever) I don't forget. Okay, so maybe Angel wasn't on drugs, but it's either drugs or believing that Angel is being utterly fake as he smiles and tosses off quips and petty jealousies, because the vampire I know was heart broken over Cordy and Connor because he loved them and tragic, horrific things had just happened to them. And EoD and Chosen had not the tiniest hint of that.
* Listening to Joss's commentary still makes me want to grab his shoulders and shake him.
So, um, what did I discover?
Nothing has changed.
(Not that I expected DVDs to change. It's just that it's a bit of a surprise to me that even after all this time, watching these episodes can dig up the old indignation and hurt.)
