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*  So last year the team I'm a fan of won the national championship in college football and this year the school where I actually graduated has won the right to play in the championship game.  Dusting off the old college spirit -- War Eagle - hey!

* Glad the abusive jerk didn't make it to the finale of The Amazing Race.  I'm really, really rooting for one of the all-girl teams to win.

* For the first time in forever, I don't feel sick at all.  Yay!

* Lots of debates in the Buffyverse fandom as people dig themselves into their positions.  *Sigh* Thus is fandom.  We really can't help the way that we see things or how we feel.  And we can't really help digging our heels in when trying to be talked out of how we feel.   It's human nature.  If we didn't see it the way we see it, we wouldn't have formed the opinions that we've formed.

* Caught up on Boardwalk Empire last night.

* Went shopping yesterday and bought a few new sweaters (all my old ones seemed to be in less than awesome condition).

* It's damn cold outside.

* And what with the 'betrayal' questions bobbing around,  I have, in my own convoluted, back-asswards way, found myself thinking of Orwell's 1984.  (How I found myself thinking about it had to do with the topic of whether or not having the protagonist lose validates those persecuting them.   I think it's in how it's executed.  Which made me think of 1984 where the protagonist loses but it's without validating the views that oppress him.).   Anyway, I ran across a 1984 quote that I found interesting, especially in light of the 'betrayal' debates:

"I betrayed you," she said baldly.

"I betrayed you," he said.

She gave him another quick look of dislike.

"Sometimes," she said, "they threaten you with something—something you can't stand up to, can't think about. And then you say, 'Don't do it to me, do it to somebody else, do it to so-and-so.' And perhaps you might pretend, afterwards, that it was only a trick and that you just said it to make them stop and didn't really mean it. But that isn't true. At the time when it happens you do mean it. You think there's no other way of saving yourself and you're quite ready to save yourself that way. You want it to happen to the other person. You don't give a damn what they suffer. All you care about is yourself."

"All you care about is yourself," he echoed.

"And after that, you don't feel the same toward the other person any longer."

"No," he said, "you don't feel the same."