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shipperx1) Finally bought a scale.
I've been dieting since Christmas. Have been doing so by eating healthfully, tracking calories, and not looking at the scale. But, I decided that I wanted to know whether the needle was heading in the right direction so, I broke down, and bought a scale.
That was depressing. Turns out, the weight I am now is the weight I thought I was to begin with! That's just sad. So, turns out I have as much weight to lose as I started thinking I had to lose... and I'm three months in on a diet. (ETA: And on re-read I realize that this might sound as though I have not lost weight. The sad part is that I definitely have. I'm two clothes sizes smaller, and it's noticeable. I've had co-workers ask what I'm doing. So what I meant was that I was more overweight than I thought to begin with. )
2) On a brighter note, my general health has improved in that, my blood pressure, which was never out of the normal range but had inched into the higher normal range, is now actually at a really good number.
Also, after my father's heart surgery a couple of years ago (genetic malformation not heart disease) my Dad's doctor prescribed him one of those blood sugar home test thingies. (He hasn't developed type II diabetes, but they want him to keep track of his blood sugar so as to know whether it escalates). Every now and then when I visit my parents my mom decides to test my blood sugar... just cause. She tested it this weekend and it was the best number I've ever had. So depressing weight issues aside, my health has improved on my "eating healthy' plan. That's good, right?
3) I ordered shallot bulbs to plant in the garden for summer. I also ordered cubanelle peppers. Both of these plants have been difficult to find around here in the past, and I wanted to give them a try in gardening. I like trying to grow stuff that I regularly use but which isn't as demanding as most vegetables...which means I mostly grow herbs and tomatoes. Will see how this turns out.
4) I was trimming puppy's nails this weekend. She squirmed at a bad moment, and I ended up cutting one nail back further than I had planned. It hurt poor puppy and she bled! A lot. I feel so GUILTY! She doesn't behave as though it hurts now and she's happy enough. And I gave her guilt-induced pimiento cheese (which she freaking LOVES), but I feel terribly guilty for (accidentally) hurting the sweet thing. *sigh*
5) Watched "The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel" this weekend. Enjoyed it.
6) Liked this week's episode of "Once Upon a Time" which was mostly (though not entirely) a flashback to when Regina enacted the curse, so it was just after she "won" in 1983. Turns out winning isn't everything it's cracked up to be. Anyway, good episode.
7) Watched the season finale of "Girls."
Someone explain to me why in the hell I continue to watch this show. Even "hate watch" this show. Most of these people are not only contemptible, but are also gross.
Hannah ruptured her eardrum last week and was freaking LICKING the pus-covered cotton swab that was stuck in her oozing ear... and then she STUCK IT BACK IN HER INJURED EAR!!! (And don't get me on what's-her-face the obnoxious British girl who pretends to be a 'free spirit' who hocked a lugie in the bathtub that she was sharing with Hannah in that FILTHY apartment (and I meant sharing the bathtub, not just the filthy apartment).. Who in the hell spits into their bathwater while. they. are. sitting. in. it.?
And then Adam and that awful sex scene with Liz from 'Roswell' (who is looking good after her cancelled CW show where she was cast as the mother of a teenager.) He practically forced her onto all fours in his filthy, filthy apartment. I'm not exactly the world's neatest person. I don't have big hangups about cleanliness. But other than Shoshanna and Marnie, these characters seem to live in remarkable filth and look like they smell (and we hear Adam claim that he taught Hannah how to use SOAP! Which would be an outrageous claim if we didn't also see her still wearing nothing but the t-shirt and panties she had been walking around (outside!) in Brooklyn in last week (with several days having passed! BATHE Hannah! And not in saliva-augmented water!)
And, is it wrong to hate a protagonist? Especially one as tragically ill-prepared for life as Hannah? Hate a protagonist who is tragically ill-prepared for life and who is legitimately mentally ill?
Seriously, the girl was getting called out for not having her shit together by a heroine junkie! I'm nodding as the molesting junkie tells Hannah that she is the most narcissistic, self-pitying person person that he's ever met, and that he used to feel sorry for her but once he got to know her he realized that she is actually a horrible person. And she is.
The girl is self-harming, self-medicating with anonymous, unprotected sex with everything from middle-aged men to teenaged boys (and that experiment with cocaine), and in full OCD meltdown (but never takes her medication)... I feel sorry for her EXCEPT I'm agreeing with a junkie that she's also a horrible, self-centered, whiney, lazy, jealous, passive-aggressive, pretentious spoiled brat...because, legitimate psychological issues aside, she's all of those things too!
This does not cause me, as a viewer, to feel either good or entertained.
What was that line she gave her father "How can I be manipulating you if I don't know I'm being manipulative?" Ahem, Hannah, with someone as completely UN-selfaware as you are, that isn't difficult.
She's calling up her Daddy, whining, wanting him to lend her money to pay back her publishers advance on her e-book, because she hasn't written a damn thing. She has one freaking sentence!
And how in the HELL is she supporting herself anyway?
Didn't she decide her job working in the coffee shop for Ray was 'beneath her' and walk out when she had the three-day lost sex weekend with the no-name doctor where she had been dumping her garbage (and what protagonist other than Hannah could possibly have such a sentence apply to her?) So she has no job. She ran off every roomate she had. She must be on her parents insurance to pay for her meds AND her trips to the ER. She did coccaine as a 'thought experiment', punctured her own eardrum, hasn't done a damn thing towards her book deadline, and calls Daddy to ask him to give her money so she can return her advance and not have to write her book and not be sued.
There have been characters that are lovable losers. Hannah is NOT a lovable loser. She's a trainwreck in need of a freaking intervention. Between the random unprotectedsex with virtual strangers to validate herself (up to and including the teenaged virgin that she wasn't even attracted to), to the self-harm, to the not taking her meds (and lying about it), to her inability to hold a job (any job. Even one given to her by a friend... which she blew off and disappeared on for a week), to her chopping off all her hair, to her jamming a q-tip down her ear until she curled into a fetal position on the floor screaming and walking through the streets of Brooklyn to the ER without wearing pants! (and then apparently keeping her street-stained, blood-stained (remember that ginormous filthy kitchen floor splinter in her butt?) panties and t-shirt (and nothing else) on for the rest of the week!
What in the hell is this?
Yeah, she's manipulative, whiney, hypochondriacal, and a mooch, but her parents need to yank her ass home! She cannot freaking take care of herself!
I actually feel sorry for this protagonist insofar as clearly she is a danger to herself. It's just that on top of being tragically ill-prepared for life, she is a self-pitying, narcissistic, whiney, pretentious, bratty, spoiled, condescending basketcase.
And most of her friends are no better. Seriously, Adam is having to be lectured by Roswell's Liz, his new girlfriend, to not call her a whore while having sex with her??!? Marnie decides she wants what's-his-name back immediately upon hearing that he's struck it rich but, of course, she's 'not interested in his money'. It's just conveeeeeeenient that he got ever so much more attractive once he struck it rich. And the selfish British bint who insulted her husband and his family and then whined that she'd tried 'really, really hard' to make her out-of-the-blue marriage to an older stock broker (yeah, quite the 'free spirit' isn't she?) when really she was just leeching off the guy to live in his upscale apartment without having to work (after all she lost her job as part-time nanny by messing around with the dad.) Other than leeching off her (soon-to-be-ex) husband, she has no means of support either and is a piece of work herself.
Basically, the only "Girl" I like on "Girl" is Shoshanna, and she was anonymously screwing the sexy doorman of her building behind her boyfriend's back. Still, she's the one 'girl' who doesn't appear to be looking for a guy to 'rescue" her.
Seriously Hannah, Marnie, British Girl are all incapable of doing ... well, anything... while constantly seeking some man to 'take care' of them. These girls make the leads of Sex and the City look like frickin' models for female empowerment! At least Carrie, Miranda, and Samantha had JOBS, went to them, and supported themselves. And were not looking for men to financially support their lifestyle so they could swan around doing NOTHING all day.
Calling BtVS's Cordelia Chase. Girls, it's time to spank your inner moppets! (Or in Hannah's case -- Go! Take your freaking meds and go home to your parents before you do (more) permanent harm to yourself!).
Okay, I'm ranting, but I basically hated 95% of the finale. (The Shoshanna/Ray break-up wasn't bad).
Hannah never wrote a damn thing for her e-book.
She continued the self abuse... and whining about it and complaining that no one was 'helping her' (because she drove everyone but the British bint away, and the British bint disappeared into her own narcissistic oblivion weeks ago)... and was Hannah lying to her father about still being on her meds? Because her ticks have not diminished an iota and she is STILL self-harming.
Then she whined, ate a carton of Cool Whip, claimed that she hadn't 'eaten in a week' (after just having eaten an entire carton of Cool Whip) and called Adam, the ex-boyfriend she had called the police on and had arrested a few weeks ago, to whine...
...And he ran across town to freaking rom-com music to sweep her off her feet into his arms and they begin making out (?!?!)
This is the resolution to her having a multi-episode emotional and psychological meltdown. Adam, the guy who can't have sex with a girl without calling her a 'whore' and trying to degrade her even when he likes her! (Illustrating the level of HIS damage) literally runs across Brooklyn, throws open her door, and sweeps poor, incapable, melted Hannah into his well-muscled arms, saying he'll take care of her.
And Lena Dunham has the gall to call this a 'feminist' show.
That ending with the swelling music and the make-out. Ugh!
Hannah needs psyche meds, a life skills class, and a healthy dose of reality, not her equally screwed up train wreck of an ex-boyfriend. And then there's Marnie getting her guy...again. Like that'll last because, let's face it, she only found him "interesting" once he got successful and might be able to support her so that she can stop being a waitress.
Any noticeable difference? Okay, okay, on the show there were garbage cans and a 45 year old doctor... and subsequent a bladder infection with public unination, but still...
*Awwweee. Megamind is playing on FX. I like that cute little animated superhero spoof. :)
I've been dieting since Christmas. Have been doing so by eating healthfully, tracking calories, and not looking at the scale. But, I decided that I wanted to know whether the needle was heading in the right direction so, I broke down, and bought a scale.
That was depressing. Turns out, the weight I am now is the weight I thought I was to begin with! That's just sad. So, turns out I have as much weight to lose as I started thinking I had to lose... and I'm three months in on a diet. (ETA: And on re-read I realize that this might sound as though I have not lost weight. The sad part is that I definitely have. I'm two clothes sizes smaller, and it's noticeable. I've had co-workers ask what I'm doing. So what I meant was that I was more overweight than I thought to begin with. )
2) On a brighter note, my general health has improved in that, my blood pressure, which was never out of the normal range but had inched into the higher normal range, is now actually at a really good number.
Also, after my father's heart surgery a couple of years ago (genetic malformation not heart disease) my Dad's doctor prescribed him one of those blood sugar home test thingies. (He hasn't developed type II diabetes, but they want him to keep track of his blood sugar so as to know whether it escalates). Every now and then when I visit my parents my mom decides to test my blood sugar... just cause. She tested it this weekend and it was the best number I've ever had. So depressing weight issues aside, my health has improved on my "eating healthy' plan. That's good, right?
3) I ordered shallot bulbs to plant in the garden for summer. I also ordered cubanelle peppers. Both of these plants have been difficult to find around here in the past, and I wanted to give them a try in gardening. I like trying to grow stuff that I regularly use but which isn't as demanding as most vegetables...which means I mostly grow herbs and tomatoes. Will see how this turns out.
4) I was trimming puppy's nails this weekend. She squirmed at a bad moment, and I ended up cutting one nail back further than I had planned. It hurt poor puppy and she bled! A lot. I feel so GUILTY! She doesn't behave as though it hurts now and she's happy enough. And I gave her guilt-induced pimiento cheese (which she freaking LOVES), but I feel terribly guilty for (accidentally) hurting the sweet thing. *sigh*
5) Watched "The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel" this weekend. Enjoyed it.
6) Liked this week's episode of "Once Upon a Time" which was mostly (though not entirely) a flashback to when Regina enacted the curse, so it was just after she "won" in 1983. Turns out winning isn't everything it's cracked up to be. Anyway, good episode.
7) Watched the season finale of "Girls."
Someone explain to me why in the hell I continue to watch this show. Even "hate watch" this show. Most of these people are not only contemptible, but are also gross.
Hannah ruptured her eardrum last week and was freaking LICKING the pus-covered cotton swab that was stuck in her oozing ear... and then she STUCK IT BACK IN HER INJURED EAR!!! (And don't get me on what's-her-face the obnoxious British girl who pretends to be a 'free spirit' who hocked a lugie in the bathtub that she was sharing with Hannah in that FILTHY apartment (and I meant sharing the bathtub, not just the filthy apartment).. Who in the hell spits into their bathwater while. they. are. sitting. in. it.?
And then Adam and that awful sex scene with Liz from 'Roswell' (who is looking good after her cancelled CW show where she was cast as the mother of a teenager.) He practically forced her onto all fours in his filthy, filthy apartment. I'm not exactly the world's neatest person. I don't have big hangups about cleanliness. But other than Shoshanna and Marnie, these characters seem to live in remarkable filth and look like they smell (and we hear Adam claim that he taught Hannah how to use SOAP! Which would be an outrageous claim if we didn't also see her still wearing nothing but the t-shirt and panties she had been walking around (outside!) in Brooklyn in last week (with several days having passed! BATHE Hannah! And not in saliva-augmented water!)
And, is it wrong to hate a protagonist? Especially one as tragically ill-prepared for life as Hannah? Hate a protagonist who is tragically ill-prepared for life and who is legitimately mentally ill?
Seriously, the girl was getting called out for not having her shit together by a heroine junkie! I'm nodding as the molesting junkie tells Hannah that she is the most narcissistic, self-pitying person person that he's ever met, and that he used to feel sorry for her but once he got to know her he realized that she is actually a horrible person. And she is.
The girl is self-harming, self-medicating with anonymous, unprotected sex with everything from middle-aged men to teenaged boys (and that experiment with cocaine), and in full OCD meltdown (but never takes her medication)... I feel sorry for her EXCEPT I'm agreeing with a junkie that she's also a horrible, self-centered, whiney, lazy, jealous, passive-aggressive, pretentious spoiled brat...because, legitimate psychological issues aside, she's all of those things too!
This does not cause me, as a viewer, to feel either good or entertained.
What was that line she gave her father "How can I be manipulating you if I don't know I'm being manipulative?" Ahem, Hannah, with someone as completely UN-selfaware as you are, that isn't difficult.
She's calling up her Daddy, whining, wanting him to lend her money to pay back her publishers advance on her e-book, because she hasn't written a damn thing. She has one freaking sentence!
And how in the HELL is she supporting herself anyway?
Didn't she decide her job working in the coffee shop for Ray was 'beneath her' and walk out when she had the three-day lost sex weekend with the no-name doctor where she had been dumping her garbage (and what protagonist other than Hannah could possibly have such a sentence apply to her?) So she has no job. She ran off every roomate she had. She must be on her parents insurance to pay for her meds AND her trips to the ER. She did coccaine as a 'thought experiment', punctured her own eardrum, hasn't done a damn thing towards her book deadline, and calls Daddy to ask him to give her money so she can return her advance and not have to write her book and not be sued.
There have been characters that are lovable losers. Hannah is NOT a lovable loser. She's a trainwreck in need of a freaking intervention. Between the random unprotectedsex with virtual strangers to validate herself (up to and including the teenaged virgin that she wasn't even attracted to), to the self-harm, to the not taking her meds (and lying about it), to her inability to hold a job (any job. Even one given to her by a friend... which she blew off and disappeared on for a week), to her chopping off all her hair, to her jamming a q-tip down her ear until she curled into a fetal position on the floor screaming and walking through the streets of Brooklyn to the ER without wearing pants! (and then apparently keeping her street-stained, blood-stained (remember that ginormous filthy kitchen floor splinter in her butt?) panties and t-shirt (and nothing else) on for the rest of the week!
What in the hell is this?
Yeah, she's manipulative, whiney, hypochondriacal, and a mooch, but her parents need to yank her ass home! She cannot freaking take care of herself!
I actually feel sorry for this protagonist insofar as clearly she is a danger to herself. It's just that on top of being tragically ill-prepared for life, she is a self-pitying, narcissistic, whiney, pretentious, bratty, spoiled, condescending basketcase.
And most of her friends are no better. Seriously, Adam is having to be lectured by Roswell's Liz, his new girlfriend, to not call her a whore while having sex with her??!? Marnie decides she wants what's-his-name back immediately upon hearing that he's struck it rich but, of course, she's 'not interested in his money'. It's just conveeeeeeenient that he got ever so much more attractive once he struck it rich. And the selfish British bint who insulted her husband and his family and then whined that she'd tried 'really, really hard' to make her out-of-the-blue marriage to an older stock broker (yeah, quite the 'free spirit' isn't she?) when really she was just leeching off the guy to live in his upscale apartment without having to work (after all she lost her job as part-time nanny by messing around with the dad.) Other than leeching off her (soon-to-be-ex) husband, she has no means of support either and is a piece of work herself.
Basically, the only "Girl" I like on "Girl" is Shoshanna, and she was anonymously screwing the sexy doorman of her building behind her boyfriend's back. Still, she's the one 'girl' who doesn't appear to be looking for a guy to 'rescue" her.
Seriously Hannah, Marnie, British Girl are all incapable of doing ... well, anything... while constantly seeking some man to 'take care' of them. These girls make the leads of Sex and the City look like frickin' models for female empowerment! At least Carrie, Miranda, and Samantha had JOBS, went to them, and supported themselves. And were not looking for men to financially support their lifestyle so they could swan around doing NOTHING all day.
Calling BtVS's Cordelia Chase. Girls, it's time to spank your inner moppets! (Or in Hannah's case -- Go! Take your freaking meds and go home to your parents before you do (more) permanent harm to yourself!).
Okay, I'm ranting, but I basically hated 95% of the finale. (The Shoshanna/Ray break-up wasn't bad).
Hannah never wrote a damn thing for her e-book.
She continued the self abuse... and whining about it and complaining that no one was 'helping her' (because she drove everyone but the British bint away, and the British bint disappeared into her own narcissistic oblivion weeks ago)... and was Hannah lying to her father about still being on her meds? Because her ticks have not diminished an iota and she is STILL self-harming.
Then she whined, ate a carton of Cool Whip, claimed that she hadn't 'eaten in a week' (after just having eaten an entire carton of Cool Whip) and called Adam, the ex-boyfriend she had called the police on and had arrested a few weeks ago, to whine...
...And he ran across town to freaking rom-com music to sweep her off her feet into his arms and they begin making out (?!?!)
This is the resolution to her having a multi-episode emotional and psychological meltdown. Adam, the guy who can't have sex with a girl without calling her a 'whore' and trying to degrade her even when he likes her! (Illustrating the level of HIS damage) literally runs across Brooklyn, throws open her door, and sweeps poor, incapable, melted Hannah into his well-muscled arms, saying he'll take care of her.
And Lena Dunham has the gall to call this a 'feminist' show.
That ending with the swelling music and the make-out. Ugh!
Hannah needs psyche meds, a life skills class, and a healthy dose of reality, not her equally screwed up train wreck of an ex-boyfriend. And then there's Marnie getting her guy...again. Like that'll last because, let's face it, she only found him "interesting" once he got successful and might be able to support her so that she can stop being a waitress.
Why in the hell am I watching this show?!
To be perfectly honest, The Onion's snarky "Next Episode of 'Girls' To Feature Lena Dunham Shitting Herself During a Gyno Exam While Eating a Burrito"* was funny because it's a fairly accurate description of what passes for "plots" on this show.
Why did I watch this overhyped, overpraised trainwreck again? I swore I wouldn't but then nothing else was on, so I did.
But I'm swearing again. I will not watch this show next season. It makes me feel bad rooting for people to lob truth bombs of reality at a mentally ill twenty-something.
For giggles I'm adding the Onion article as it captures both the essence of what Girls' episodes have become AND mocks the fawning praise heaped on the show:
Here is a REAL review from TVGuide:
NO MORE Q-TIPS! After last week's harrowing episode of HBO's Girls, in which the neurotic Hannah damaged her ear with a Q-Tip (I'm not sure whose scream was more bloodcurdling: hers or mine) and her unstable ex Adam reverted to barbaric type with a degrading sexual interlude with his bewildered and grossed-out new girlfriend, we're almost afraid to watch the second-season finale (9/8c) of this raw, remarkable dark comedy.
And THIS is The Onion's "snark"...:
From The Onion:
According to numerous critics’ reports, an upcoming episode of HBO’s hit comedy Girls features the show’s star, Lena Dunham, losing control of her bowels during a routine gynecological exam while eating a large burrito. “The scene is raw, it’s brave, and it’s the boldest thing we’ve seen Dunham do yet: a smart, unsanitized comedy of errors that perfectly captures the experience of being at the ob-gyn,” said Huffington Post television critic Kia Makarechi of the envelope-pushing episode, wherein the burrito-eating Dunham elects to be examined completely nude because hospital gowns make her “feel like she’s dying of bone cancer or something” and awkwardly flirts with the 55-year-old gynecologist before violently shitting herself and then asking if the doctor can prescribe her anything for her anxiety. “When a naked Hannah dribbled hot sauce all over herself in front of the doctor, shit in every corner of the office, cried, became angry with the doctor, had sex with the doctor, finished her burrito, had sex with the doctor again, shit herself again, and then realized who she was really angry at and sexually attracted to was Adam, I just closed my eyes and said, ‘Thank you.’ These are real girls with real bodies doing things that real girls do.” At press time, fans were abuzz after a tweet from Dunham hinted at an all-nude third season.
Any noticeable difference? Okay, okay, on the show there were garbage cans and a 45 year old doctor... and subsequent a bladder infection with public unination, but still...
*Awwweee. Megamind is playing on FX. I like that cute little animated superhero spoof. :)
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Date: 2013-03-19 07:23 am (UTC)Ditto.
Dieting is weird but all the other things that you've tracked are very good news so you know that all that hard work wasn't wasted.
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Date: 2013-03-20 04:24 pm (UTC)And I have lost weight, so no loss. And I was beginning to worry about future health risks, so that's better. I've even almost reached my original clothes-size goal. It's just that now looking at the weight number, I need to revise my goal. My BMI needs to be lower, full stop.
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Date: 2013-03-19 10:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-20 04:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-19 12:32 pm (UTC)Good for you on the health front. Ultimately, that's more important than losing weight, after all, though I'm sure you will. It just takes longer when you're doing it sensibly.
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Date: 2013-03-20 04:29 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2013-03-19 04:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-20 04:33 pm (UTC)And every time I see someone say "But I am/was just like that!" I want to cringe.
Really? You were/are like that? Are you proud of that fact? You're comfortable announcing that to the public? The girl LICKED her pus-covered cotton ball and STUCK IT BACK IN HER PERFORATED EAR!!!
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Date: 2013-03-19 11:37 pm (UTC)So, I never watched it. It sounds like it was a good decision.
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Date: 2013-03-20 04:34 pm (UTC)Still, if people were calling this the voice of MY generation, I'd be claiming to be in another demographic just so I wouldn't need to claim it!
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Date: 2013-03-22 05:14 pm (UTC)Girls had a girl... who was late.
So...yeah. I don't agree with the professor.